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I don't think I've ever been in a relationship this healthy before I don't know what to do 💀
#mine#🎸#DUDE my feelings are so weird like i cant even describe them cause theyre all over the place. im hoping someone sees this and sends me an#ask or something with advice if this is even gonna make sense. because i am so confused lmfao#First of all im always expecting something to go wrong so i feel like it might be the absence of Problems thats throwing me off#But he reassures me all the time and genuinely cares about me? in regards to my last post we talked about it and he comforted me#i feel like im kind of in an emotional limbo where im still processing everything. my yan moments make appearances more than my dere#i feel so cringe saying that as a native english speaker. well im here to express my feelings not to be judged <3#but i definitely FEEL the jealousy more. like i exhibit both equally but im more emotional in a bad way than a good way#but its not cause of anything hes doing at all! hes perfect?! i dont know how to handle it!! i only know how to be jealous#at least if im mean im not as likely to get hurt and thats why im afraid to feel lovey things as much??? im making myself sound like#a bastard but ive just been feeling more anxiety and getting worried about Relationship Stuff and that kills the vibes#but he doesnt even mind he doesnt treat my problems like a burden. he isnt sick of them he doesnt abandon me. he loves me and i am still so#bewildered? like. hes the nicest guy ive ever dated. ill gush about new people i meet but they do have flaws. i just dont acknowledge them#because im so blinded by idolization. but for this one ive thought everything out i have PONDERED for so long and he really is just such a#good person. how? WHY?? he has not done anything wrong and its just my mental illness that causes ALL the problems. but he wants to#BE there and comfort me. what the fuck my brain is like short circuiting. people this nice exist? he doesnt want to use me??#and ofc this is all in the romantic sense. i still have friends that i value very much but this post is focused on romance#watch me say all this then he does something horrible. <-SEE IM SO NEGATIVE i expect things to go wrong#my main problem is im confused about my feelings they feel very tangled and muddled. im happy of course but i feel like the part of me that#feels romantic happiness/genuine satisfaction is all fucked up and broken. but he doesnt mind that im this way 🥲 WHY#HE ASSURES ME EVERYTHINGS OKAY he is there for me he cares about me but i cant wrap my head around it! im. this is so weird#one of my goals is to be less focused on being insane and actually get things done. w all my relationships i have a time blur thing#where i feel like time passes differently even more than it does for me. im just thinking so much bruh#right i think i was gonna go about getting adderall because of the everything all the time. im feeling numb but also#literally every emotion all at once. and it consumes me and my waking thoughts. i guess it was easier to ignore before?
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Ugh I'm literally so fucking upset I can't even concentrate but i need to if I want to get out of the situation that's upsetting me sooo likeee!!!!
#this is just so fucking annoying tho cause even if i get out of here soon my sister is still gonna work there#with him#and its gonna be awkward#cause when she eventually finds all this shit out shes gonna be PISSED like id be afraid for his life if i gave a shit abt him#whatever tho whatever whatever just#lesson learned#lesson(s)#1. dont go for older guys just cause theyre supposedly more mature ! none of them are motherfucking mature ! girl every song has been#telling u this for years fuck!!!#2. dont settle for a short ass just cause hes nice to u jesus christ how many times#3. trust no one! 4. question everyones ulterior motives! just cause u dont have them doesnt mean everyone else doesnt!#im just glad my friend swooped in right before i was about to embarrass myself past the point of no return cause fgs#thank god for her anyway 😭😭#anyway several people are now dead to me and my nice lovely job where everyones nice and lovely just became a warzone#fucking hate everyone#ellies shitchats
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i know i would be a vastly different person if i didnt have to deal with hyper-empathy. i know i probably have things that i benefit from by being too empathetic. but its very hard not to wonder how happier i would be if i just didnt have to deal with that.
#wind howls#google search when do i stop caring about my parents happiness and start working towards my own ?#that just seems like such a mild example but i cannot overstate how deeply the thought is poisoning me.#i. dont necessarily envy having no empathy. some of my very dearly beloved homies have little empathy and-#i know how that can cause trouble for them ! i do not envy that. i just wish i could care about things a normal amount.#i also wish that like. hyper empathy was seen just a tad more seriously. i get that theres clowns out there who claim to be empaths and#whatever other bullshit they tried to pull off either for jokester purposes or to scam people. like i get that#its just so unfun when its on a clinical level. it feels like i am being haunted by everyone around me.#when do i start caring about what i feel ? when do i start caring about my own happiness ? maybe thats part of why im suffocating so much#god i need to move out. its going to cause me so much pain to move out. its going to hurt and relieve my parents when i move out.#theyre going to be so proud of me. theyre going to be devastated. its hard enough knowing that us immigrating here caused-#my maternal grandpa to develop diabetes from how heartbroken he was. i am so afraid to cause them pain. i know theyre not happy here.#what am i supposed to do ? when do i start living my life for myself ? is it when i move out ? is it when my parents pass ? i#dont even want to think about that. the paranoia from that already makes me feel ill on a good day.#i dont know how to remedy to myself. i feel sick and sad. i would like to know what it feels like to live for just myself alone someday#wurgh.#until then. i have editing class and drawing class tomorrow. ill try to focus on that for now.
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chronic sniffler.
soap and tissues thoughts under the cut
the thing abt soap n tissues is that theyve got like. Really opposite versions of the same problem. tissues' condition causes him to have problems with cleanliness, and soap's OCD (not canonically stated but. its pretty coded.) causes her to be obsessed with compulsively cleaning to the point of... putting hand sanitizer in pizza. Which is pretty bad.
shes clearly really afraid about potential contaminants which, yeah. OCD is based in fear and uncertainty. its not gonna be easy for her to manage it, even if she dumps all her cleaning supplies off a cliff. things Do need to be cleaned, and i feel like her avoiding cleaning supplies could easily result in a worse avoidance-based compulsion. (like, "oh theres sponges here. Sponges mean things need to be cleaned. things in here might be unclean, so i need to throw out the sponges." which isnt logical but OCD doesnt adhere to logic anyway.)
i think her tossing her cleaning supplies off the cliff was already a significant attempt to stop feeding into her contamination fear through compulsive cleaning! which is great. but i think it would be a great additional step for her to talk to tissues more often, especially because he was unfairly caught in the crossfire.
i think itd be cool for them to make amends. tissues could provide a healthy outlet for soap's urge to clean, and point out when she's being obsessive. n soap could help tissues out with cleanin up when hes havin trouble, and keep him company during flares bc sneezing, nausea, vertigo, + chronic pain is definitely something thats easier to cope with when youre not also lonely about it. At least for me. (coughs awkwardly.) point is i think them being friends would be good for both of them long term.
in FFF tissues noticably softens a little after bein referred to as a friend by fan, and like. emotional comfort definitely helps make the physical a little less bad. i like to think thats why he was able to fall asleep in the chair. also makes me think that maybe people dont consider him a friend nearly as much as hed like, and well that probably makes the chronic illness more frustrating.
idk. being disabled (whether that be mentally or physically) is rough. I want these two disabled girls to be nice to each other n help out where they can. i think they could make each others lives a little easier that way.
this is only like. 1/3 projection. im not going to lie n say im not projecting a little, but these two just happen to have similar problems i do. and i like them a lot for where i can relate, even if we def dont have the same personalities. its nice bein able to see myself in both of em. Also theyre underrated.
#inanimate insanity#tissues ii#soap ii#not ship art but feel free to tag it as such?#i see them as friends who help each other out in managing their disabilities#denver art#these drawings were prompted by the very bad flares im in rn. 😔
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been browsing the reddit and there is an interesting point they bring up that i think a lot of people are afraid of pointing out for fear of coming off as victim blaming. and its the fact that people are very quick to dismiss accountability on caitis side, with most people pinning it all on her friends. and im guilty of this too but theyre not wrong in that caiti deliberately chose to word her first stream like that, she chose to leave information out/lie, and she chose to share that screenshot even though it was fake and said nothing to clear it up. even if her friends have influenced her, she still chose to go through with it. her friends did not hold her at gunpoint and force her to do those things. and i guess its because i was thinking about the framing of "freshly 18" and the way that people are accusing george of sexually assaulting a "young girl". like we pushed back on those things because 18 is an adult, she's not a child and infantilizing her is weird in an attempt to smear george. but i think by pinning all the blame on her friends, we kinda circle back around to making it seem like shes just a helpless little girl who cant make decisions on her own. and i 100% understand that her pain couldve caused these things, maybe she really didnt remember things well, maybe she was afraid if it didnt sound bad enough no one would take her seriously, i dont know. and i empathize with that but also she needlessly demonized a man to a wild extend and i do think she needs to take responsibility for not portraying things faithfully at some point. being hurt doesnt excuse you from hurting others. saying that caiti made mistakes too can coexist with her being hurt by what george did that night.
really well-worded anon and i think this last bit really sums up everything. Caiti was not a silent, non-moving piece of this situation. She was the one who consciously made the choice to stream, use that specific extreme language, initially withhold proof, not verify screenshot sources, not talk to george privately first, etc. and while she can be hurt by what happened and possibly have made poor choices in response to what happened, it does not absolve her of any responsibility for this chaotic fallout.
I don't think that is victim blaming, i think that's honestly just not convincing yourself that the way she handled this and the things she did were perfect.
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papercut napping/sleeping hcs por favor??
brought to you by the good ass nap i just woke up from
honkkkk mimimimimiiiii hooooonkkkkk mimimimimi
•god forbid pony dozed off in class, curly would hit ponys hand away from his face to make pony hit his head hard on the desk but once pony busted his lip and that was the end of that😭
•waking up from sleep ponys not looking at curly face to face bc curlys under the sheets (he finds sleeping under the sheets very warm and comforting)
•they both got insomnia but curlys sleeping schedule is so fucked sometimes he CAN sleep at night and ponys left alllllll alone at night,,,poor feller
•on the rarest of occasions when pony reads to curly, curly tends to fall asleep, pony thinks its bc hes boring him but its just bc ponys voice is comforting to sleep to for the guy
•theyre both snappy when theyre super tired, they just walk to bed arguing and when they wake up they dint even address what they were saying before 😭
•they both sleep w a nightlight, theyre not afraid of the dark or anything and they would b alright without it being there they just like having a lil light in the room, BUT if the word got out theyre totally hiding it away for a while
•curly has to pull pony to go to bed, if he doesnt pony either sleeps in thee most uncomfortable place or he doesnt sleep at all, USUALLY its a mix of the two where he doesnt sleep for long and his whole back just messed up
•they dont need a weighted blanket, at some point in the night theyll just take turns putting all their weight on the other
•curlys stopped saying sweet dreams to pony cause when he would, piny would just end up having a nightmare so hes sworn off saying it cause he felt bad, not bc he felt like it was his fault he knows it aint, its just god damn dude😭
•whatever u hc curly to sleep in, durags or bonnets, pony keeps trying to put it back on his head during the night cause it slips off so easily (thats if curly even bothers trying to put it on before he knocks out honestly, they wake up and both their hairs is a mess and pony has to help him detangle his hair)
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idea,, readerbot au, but. Eclipse(tm)
short explanation: Eclipse is, in simple terms???, a virus or stray few remanents of code (thought to be deleted) gone haywire and MIA. he only exists as that code, though complex, he has no processor or body in any way; he just kinda (after getting free) runs around through the Fazbear systems peeking through cameras n occasionally tampering with with stuff in small ways (oh nooooo the lights went out when u crossed the room,, oh nope theyre back on just as u reach the switch! oh wait darn theyre out again as soon as ur halfway across th room again how could that have happened)
ReaderBot accidentally 'catches' the 'virus' while working on the arcade machine Eclipse had been stuck on, and is, naturally, quite worried n freaked out but can't seem to isolate the 'virus' in order to anti-virus it out of their system. Eclipse, having been trapped, isolated, and bored for years now, is erratic and unpredictable, inadvertently messing with ReaderBot's systems at odd times n making them confused n scared. After a while, Eclipse kinda chills out a bit after realizing Readerbot is actually afraid of him, and by the time Readerbot isolates his code and can antivirus him, he's too much of a sort-of-roommate for them to go through with it. the two become friends, Readerbot grateful for someone who can actually understand them, and Eclipse ecstatic to have someone to interact with after so long alone. and yeah Eclipse definitely starts crushing on them like hardcore sorry i dont make the rules he just does that on his own
tidbits: -Eclipse can alter their sensors to 'appear' in their field of view, but only as a sort of 'illusion' only readerbot can see -Eclipse can sort of 'hear' Readerbots thoughts, and is always very upset when they are feeling anxious or down, partly bc he can't physically do much to comfort or help them; instead, in an attempt to do anything he can to cheer them up, he does,, silly stuff? like if readerbot is almost knocked over by a customer and just stands there lowkey going 'geez, some people' eclipse will appear and mime kicking the rude person in th ass skhfjsdhfjskhdf -readerbot almost gets caught reacting n 'talking' to,, nothing. like multiple times. the kids think 'oh, they have an imaginary friend! neat!' while everyone else is like squints 'staffbot,, buggy? staffbot needs debugging? maybe reset staffbot? hmm. but so much data in there,, maybe is nothing? hmmmmmmmm. better keep eye on staffbot.' -(and yea sun n moon would have some kinda feelings abt readerbot basically letting a whole entire other entity/deleted version of them live in their head rent free) -(and also yea Eclipse is the remains of a prototype Daycare Attendant that got scrapped n replaced by Sun n Moon hehe :3c this definitely causes no drama at all 100% none)
ok now doodles,
#readerbot au#readerbot#readerbot but also eclipse#fnaf au#staffbot reader au#repairbot reader#repairbot au#fnaf eclipse x y/n#fnaf eclipse x reader#virus eclipse#he's just a silly lil guy for readerbot but utter menace for everyone else#mostly harmless menace tho#i swear#;3#doodles#sketches#idea rambles#au ideas#bones of a rabbit au#long post#rambling#fanfic concepts#concept art#i promise i'll make a better concept for eclipse at some point#cries#anyway i should b sleeping lmaoooo#bones of a rabbit
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the animal is trapped. II
warning: slight mention of homophobia, smut?(not really,just words)
It’s been now exactly 5 days since I came here,it hasn’t been so bad apart from carol glaring at me for every little thing that I do, talking to Alex and piper? Glaring. Reading? Glaring. walking? Also glaring I don’t know what her deal was.
I made my way into the library since i never looked around it when i first came here. hearing a few movements behind the shelves but i didnt think too much into it since there are a lot of girls here who love to sneak around and touch each other anywhere they find " private". i grab a random book from the shelve suddenly seeing carol sitting behind the shelve with a magazine in her hand and a jawbreaker in her mouth like always,the wall behind her had a few burt reynolds posters but ive also seen frieda with her. ive noticed these few days that they’re probably close
carol's eyes suddenly shot up to look at my face that was in between the books. her eyes narrowed as i quickly turned away and huffed while shaking my head. jesus shes actually scary i dont blame people for being afraid of her, whenever she'd look at me so coldly or glare at me with her top lip curled i feel as if my heart dropped to my panties also,whenever she'd growl when shes pissed or just mad.
this is what was running through my mind as i walked around the library until i felt a hand wrap around my throat with my back slamming against the shelve causing a few books to fall with a small wince escaping my mouth. the second i looked up my eyes were met with carol's ,her face was red and she looked pretty annoyed " have you been fucking avoiding me? huh cookie?" she spat out as she tightened her grip a little. my brows furrowed as i grip her wrist a little "n-no im just trying…trying to do my time here in peace." i stuttered due to both the lack of air and since i was honestly a bit nervous and slightly scared. i heard her scoff as she looked at me with a sneer "thats 25 years. dont fuck with me navia." my neck arched a bit as i could feel her warm breath against my face before i said " god just leave me alone i did nothing to you." i said in a slightly shaky tone as her brows raised with frieda chuckling behind her " growing some balls now arent ya?" she said before squeezing my throat a little
" dont be such a snobby little bitch." she growled before letting go of my neck as she turned and left with frieda following her
i huff as i put my hand over my throat rubbing it slightly,god she definitely left at least a bruise on my throat from how strong her grip was. normally if this ever happened to me i'd cover it with some concealer but now that im in prison i obviously cant so everyone is gonna see it. i groan softly as i made my way to the bathroom after throwing the book aside. carol was right tho, i was avoiding her as much as i can after seeing how problematic but also peaceful at the same she was justing fucking confusing i cant even tell if shes a complete psycho or just mood swings , i would be away from the cell most the time and also away from the table she plays bridge at i would only be in the cell with her whenever i wanted to go to bed. i was just trying to avoid problems as much as i can so i dont get more years added to my sentance after all im probably gonna get released by the time i turn 44/46.
i stayed in the bathroom for the past 15 minutes holding a towel that i ran under some cold water against my neck, i dont know why i thought it would make the bruise disappear but it did fade the slightest bit, i let out a small sigh before walking out as i went back to the block again since it was lunch time, the second i grabbed my trey i went over to sit with alex and piper since theyre the only sane ones here besides you can say were friends now. i sigh as i take a bite of my food noticing both of them staring at my throat which made ne raise a brow,before i could say anything alex suddenly cut me off with "what the hell happened to you..whats that on yout neck?" i press my lips togather before shrugging "its nothing serious" i said with a chuckle but piper raised her brow and crossed her arm " carol?" i sigh as i groan before giving up and nodding as i roll my eyes before spitting out "you guys already know that its carol,why'd you even ask when its clear?" i said a bit frusrated as i grab my fork and start eating until piper said " jesus what did you even do? you told us that youre avoiding her." i raise my brows as i put my hands up "exactly. she noticed and probably not happy about it thats why she uh..choked me?" i shrug before looking up at them both "but hey im still alive. the bruise will eventually disappear" i said as they just looked at each other and just kept eating silently since i was gonna probably snap if they ask more, honestly the more i stayed here the worse my anger issues get
********* 3 hours later **********
i was sat on the top bunk finally since there was no point of avoiding carol anymore, she'd still bother me even if i tried to i just didnt bother to try again. i had a random magazine in my hand as my upper lip curled a bit everytime i saw a extremly hairy man pop up on the magazine or any man in general since im a lesbian, its not big news almost every girl here is. except for carol i think like come on she has all that power and control but she never thought of going down on a girl? maybe shes just straight. my thoughts got interrupted when i heard carol's footsteps coming to the cell, i didnt look up from the magazine instead i just kept flipping through the pages until i heard carol say "burt reynolds is the only one worth wasting time for" she said when she saw me looking at the women in the magazine. i look at her with a slightly disgusted expression before saying "ick..hes not worth looking at" she raised a brow as she leaned on the wall " what are you a fucking dyke? who dosent like burt reynolds?." i put the magazine aside before leaning down with my arm crossed " what are you a fucking homophobic? burt reynolds is stupid,you have bad taste." she growled before grabbing my chin as our noses were almost touching "watch your fucking language when you talk to me." she scoffed before letting go of my chin and threw a ice pack next to me "here..put this on the bruise it'll help i think. and again, you better fucking watch your mouth" she said before she laid on her bunk and grabbed a magazine from under her pillow. i stared at the ice pack thinking this is probably her way of apologizing besides i dont see her as the type to actually apologize so i wasnt surprised. i put the pack against the bruise which made me grut my teeth a bit at how cold it was before i said "thank you by the way." i heard no response from her as i just shrugged it off and grab the magazine again until a random inmate stood by the door and said " uh hey carol..do you still sell horse?" she said as carol just shot her a glare " cant you fucking see that im busy?" she spat out as the girl quickly walked away after apologizing. now that i think about it she probably uses her hidey-hole to sell there and smoke otherwise why would she be there? . i started drifting off to sleep after just constantly thinking about random things in the prison with most of my thoughts running around carol.
before i knew it i woke up with a loud bang on the wall only to see ginger hitting the wall with the baton which caused me to sit up quickly " time to wake up inmate!" she yelled as i groan and rub my eyes, not finding carol in the cell she was probably in her hidey-hole in the library or playing bridge.
i got off the bunk before grabbing a towel as i walked to the bathroom,stripping off my clothes as i got into the shower, i let out a sigh of relief when the warm water hit my skin, i huff when i realized that i left my conditioner in the cell "hey uh can i use some of your conditioner?" i asked the girl in the next shower without looking at her since ive seen enough naked women these past few days ive spent in here
" alright but its gonna cost ya ,use a little i dont want it empty when i take it back." she said but i couldnt really hear her from how loud the water was until the conditioner bottle was thrown at my body and hit my collarbone. i groaned before using a little "thanks" was all i said before rinsing
after 17 minutes i stepped out the shower with a towel that barely covered anything. i was drying my hair with the towel as the girl who gave me the bottle walked out. "carol?" i said as i parted my lips a bit as she took the bottle with a smirk "you're welcome." she said sarcastically before walking past me while adjusting the towel on her body. honestly this was my first time seeing her without her glasses and the halfpart hair, i would be lying if i said she didnt look good. i thought while brushing my hair until i heard a voice next to me say " y'know for a skinny girl you got some nice tits" she said with a chuckle my eyes widened a bit as i look at carol quickly "uh..thank you?" i said with my face turning a bit red when i noticed her eyes on my cleavage. i clear my throat while brushing my hair until i felt a hand spin me around with my back hitting the wall,the brush fell out of my hand as my breath hitched when carol leaned closer. her hands pinning my wrists next to my head as my chest heaving up and down the second her lips brushing over my ear "dont forget that you owe me." she whispered as she looked at how flushed my face is, seeing her sneer as she nibbled on my lips " look at your face..so red because of this?" she spat out while looking into my eyes as i parted my lips a little i was speechless with my heart beating rapidly almost like its gonna jump out of my chest "i want you to work for me..want you to help me sell drugs." she said with her lips brushing over mine as my lips twitched a bit, i had to take a few seconds to process what was happening as she suddenly grabbed my chin and her lip curled a bit. clearly she was losing patience as she narrowed her eyes and said " did you not fucking hear me?" she growled as i nodded my head quickly " fine..i-i'll help you sell." i stutter a bit which made me feel a bit embaressed " good girl..you'll find me in the library" she said sarcastically before letting go of me and walking out the bathroom
i was walking to the library with my head running through what happened in the bathroom earlier.her lips were literally on mine and i was smelling her coconut scented shampoo..i shook the thoughts off my head before walking into the library,going behind the shelve where her hidey-hole was as the second i walked there i saw carol punching and kicking the shelve before she growled out a scream " fucking d cunt bitches! we gotta teach them a fucking lesson frieda!" my eyes widened a bit as i look at them with confusion written all over my face "what's going on?" i said as carol looked at me as she spat out between grutted teeth " the stash is gone!" .
sorry it took me so long to update. but i promise the next chapter is gonna longer and more intresting!
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this is going to be very long and rambly, i apologize. you can answer any, all, or no parts of it, i guess i just really need to blurt it all out to *someone*
for the past 3 or 4 years, ive been having mild (?) transient stress related psychotic symptoms. i suspect i have a cluster b pd which could possibly cover that
at first it was mostly paranoia i think ? usually the standard "theyre out to get me" type thoughts, both with people i knew and nebulous entities i couldnt define. it doesnt happen too frequently, but it seems to have gotten worse with time. this past fall / winter was especially bad bc i was already doing poorly mental health wise and was very isolated. a lot of the thoughts are still paranoia based, but some lean more towards delusions now (e.g. being afraid of the music i left to play from my phone speakers bc i felt it was hunting me down) as well as some that are fully bizarre (e.g. believing that ive been an angel stuck inside a human body my whole life, thinking theres a force field around my apartment thats keeping me stuck inside). for a while there was also this... pervasive sense of unreality almost ? like i would get frustrated that things werent operating on dream logic, or have difficulty differentiating dreams and reality in general. for the past couple months since then, ive had pretty much no issues
i always retain Some grasp on reality, whether its full on double booking or a vague sense of "something is wrong with me right now", which is enough for me to hide away from people and try to calm myself down and ground myself back to reality (... can you even do that with "real" delusions ? talk yourself out of them ?). the symptoms only last a few hours "at their peak", though the unsteady / unreality feeling may stick around for days or weeks surrounding that. im still able to be mostly functional for that part though. as such, nobody knows about any of this.
i just. i dont know. i dont have a therapist (i need one). im too afraid telling my friends will change their views on me irreparably even though they too struggle with (other) deeply stigmatized mental health issues. ive spent a lot of my childhood being called insane and incapable and i dont want it to happen again after ive finally found people that respect me. im worried ill have a full on psychotic break at some point (what the hell counts as "a break" ? can i call what ive been through "episodes" ?), or lose my ability to double book, or display symptoms in front of people i know. i just dont know what to do so im. spilling it out all here. so someone at all besides me knows
-- elias
Hey there,
Sorry it took me a while to get back to you.
It definitely sounds to me like you are experiencing some level of psychotic symtoms, and it sounds like it's causing you significant distress. You asked whether you can "talk yourself out of" a "real delusion" - and well, not as such, until the delusion passes, but they can be more or less long-lived and come with more or less insight.
The types of episode that only last a couple hours at full intensity are sometimes referred to as micropsychoses. When people talk about "a psychotic episode" it usually refers to a prolonged loss of reality that may last days, weeks or even months. But plenty of people on the schizo- and psychosis spectrum don't experience full-blown psychotic episodes. That doesn't make their psychosis un-serious, and it also isn't a given that these people will go on to develop worse psychotic symptoms.
I think one of the reasons the diagnosis of schizotypal exists, is because we needed to acknowledge that not every person's endpoint on the schizo-spectrum is schizophrenia, but that doesn't mean that their experience doesn't come with distress or disability.
I think you could try to do a vibe check with your friends to see how they react to the concept of psychosis and psychotic disorders. If they seem cool, then you could try to bring up your own experiences. It might be nice to be able to talk about those things, and get to experience that it doesn't have to be the end of the world, and not everyone will judge you for it.
I hope you all the best, anon!!
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yoooooooo, I was scrolling through your old blogs and I found you had a mystery files jacket??????? Did you get that at the old shop?? Also what other kind of watcher merch do you have? Cause like, I'm thinking of getting some but I'm afraid they'll add something new and then I've wasted all my money :(
yeah!! i have a mystery files jacket! i got it on the old watcherstore when mystery files premiered last year. i love it, it has inside pockets!!! i wore it to the chicago pride parade last year too!
i have quite a bit of watcher merch because im 🤏 irresponsible with money, and my brother and parents get me watcher merch for birthdays and christmas.
i have the professor plush which i love and cherish so much. he is perfect for squeezing when i get really excited and need to stim
the watcher logo patch and the weird wonderful world patch (that are just by my computer, offering their support)
the weird wonderful world shirt (i actually have 2 because one was misprinted and i was able to get a replacement)
the team shaniac shirt that just cracks me up everytime i look at it. i wore it when i met shane and ryan on tour last october!
the lil ghost from too many spirits pin that lives on my fluffy white coat.
the professor scrunchie and the too many spirits scrunchie (they came as a duo). im obsessed with the professor scrunchie im too scared to wear it cus i dont want to get it dirty. (THEY GAVE HIM A HAT !! THEY PUT A LITTLE HAT ON A SCRUNCHIE AREYOUKIDDINGME??? THATS SO CUTE!)
i got the 2023 signed ghost files tour poster, i still need to get a frame for it.
and i recently pre ordered the team shaniac patch, and im planning on putting it on my mystery files jacket.
also im not saying because of this ask i checked out the watcherstuff merch site and impulse ordered the s1 puppet history pins BUT THATS KINDA WHAT JUST HAPPENED LMAOO (listennnn its been rough, i deserve a little treat in the form of wearing god on my jacket)
their merch is really good, i like it a lot. its cute, some of it is subtle, and good quality. everything i got, besides the shaniac patch, was from the old store. if i remember right, theyre currently switching merch companies ?? and i dont think the old merch is coming back (i could be wrong, i dont work there lol). but if you do want a shot at some of the old merch, they're selling mystery boxes on their watcherstuff store now. plus anything labeled "first edition" is from their old merch store. my guess is when that is sold out, its gone.
it'll probably take them some time to design, produce, and sell new merch. so if you want something now, id get it now because you'll likely have time before the next new drop. but the current merch likely isnt going to go away any time soon.
#special intrest plus being an 'adult' with money means im gonna buy things that make me feel nice when i see and wear them#plus im supporting watcher which feels nice#watcher#thanks for the ask!
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ive always felt that my calling was to live in different places to travel and see but i really really love prague so much. i love this city. i love this place so much that. all the news of war around the world makes me both grateful to live in peace and afraid because those people living in destruction never predicted it either.
and i simply cannot comprehend it. how could anyone take a step to destroy a city. a place where people live and love and are born and die???? why do that. there is so much meaning and i love it all. the human lives all weaved together into a metropolis, for better or for worse. i love every tram stop and every spiderweb and every underfunded railway station and every dog poop bag dispenser. the man who got out of his car at a red light to ask me if i was okay crying at the crosswalk. the ferry boat operator who is inseparable from his black lab. all my neighbors in my apartment block with their dogs and their cats and children and weed smell and endless drama. the crowded post office and the corner shop owners whose name i dont know but have seen once a week for years. every rushed walk to work trying to navigate past elementary school trips on the sidewalk and tourist groups from god knows where. the old women who glare at you if you take a microsecond longer than is acceptable to notice them and give them your seat. the fact that the southwestern riverside smells like raw pizza dough half the year from the industrial brewery. the teens they hire to stand around and tell people where to go when the metro isn't going. the ukranian man with a tesla who drove me home from work cause we live close together and why not. the bar owners who are too drunk to calculate your total so you gotta spend three minutes doing napkin math. the karaoke nights that i never go to but i know theyre there... the flight schools operating out of small strips in the outskirts and people blocking the road packing their van for their weekend camping trips and the coffee festivals and the opera nights and the outdoor theatres and the riverside "beach" resorts and the concert halls and the fire stations and the doctors outside the clinic smoking cigarettes on break next to the gym receptionists an drug store owners....
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absol are so silly to me and i love them so much and augh. its so sad that so many people still think they’re the cause of disaster since theh often show up before or after one and most absol are more,,, observers than anything so they tend to watch instead of help. plus since theyre so good at mimicking other pokemons cries and stuff sincw its how they attract prey, they also scream VERY HUMAN-LIKE when warning of danger since most absol figure out a human scream is the best way to get a persons attention.
pokedexes, absol and dark type in general trainers, and various ranger groups have done so much for absol but theres just so many people wjo live in small superstitious towns, or places where absol arent native to tjat only see ansol during crisis, or elderly people who grew up before we knew better, or just kids who are too afraid to get close enough to scan an absol with their pokedex.
doesnt help that their population has dwindled quite a bit because of the misconception, meaning people just. dont see absol as often anymore even where they’re native. absol on average live around 100 years or so but they can live for more if cared for!!! their average wild life span is brought down significantly by the amount that end up injured or killed when theyre little because they havent honed their disaster sense or those that know of the danger that will befall them but dont know how to avoid it or those that CANT sense danger in regards to themself.
thats a thing btw every absol senses and reacts to danger differently. they also all consider different things a disaster. some will consider their paper stubbing their toe a world ending disaster and others will not scream at anything less than a fucking tornado. it depends.
also absolutely are mostly solitary but its not uncommon for absol mothers to form like small groups with their kids for about a year or two where older kids stay with her and help raise her new litter before going off on their own. absol will have like 2-3 litters like this before letting all the kids go and then they tend to stop for a few years as like a break and depending on the absol will start this again. absol wont always do this some absol are more comfortable having litters without the previous litter still around or cant do this die to outside issues.
anyways absol so silly to me yippe.
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My Reactions to Trigun Stampede After Watching the 1998 show
So I watched all of the 98 show in less than 24 hours and adored it so I went into Stampede cautious and yknow I liked it just a tiny bit (as I am writing this I am on my 4th rewatch, I watched it for the first time 3 days ago, I adore it). I decided to document my reactions cause I feel like a few mutuals will enjoy this.
Episode 1
SPACE??? ALREADY??? JUST RIGHT OUT THE GATE???
awww hi Vash, lil guy <333
what are they cooking here, showing us the Rem situation immediately
Rem 😢
This is very much like Eva in DMC5
Oh they're reporters now?
WHERE'S MILLY, WHERE IS MY GIRL MILLY, WHO IS THIS GUY AND WHERE IS MILLY
i miss milly...
yep that's Meryl
VASHHHHHHH <333333 MY GUY <3333333
JOHNNY YOUNG BOSCH <333333333333333333333 (yes i watched the dub, it's good and I love Johnny Young Bosch)
only 6 million??
He's so sillay <333
MAJOR aesthetic difference
"Careful the kitchen's serving lead" queen
so weird to see a town not running Vash out
love that they're still mixing the music so that it's louder than the dialogue (not)
THEYRE JUST HANDING THE VASH AND KNIVES LORE AT THE VERY START?????
Knives you are so close to playing the Interstellar theme
I should really read the manga to see what they're adapting that 98 didn't
Ooo i love this song
98 STYLE ART ASDJFKAJDSFLJADFKJA THEY DID THAT FOR ME THAT WAS FOR ME THAT CATERS TO ME
Episode 2
I just noticed he calls him "Nai" euueueueueu
*insert catjam here* intro goes so hard
It'd be funny if Roberto went "man this sounds like Dante and Vergil"
Not him trying to cry his way out asjkdfjlkadf that's Vash for sure
I'm so glad they got Johnny Young Bosch for this I don't think anyone else could do it
July is still around??
"MAMA LOVES YOU BABY NOW SHOO" iconic
noooo :[
NEBRASKA FAMILY
"why'd they have to use this photo" it's a cute photo!
HE'S SO REAL
ONE BULLET VS 2 DOZEN DONUTS, LIKE YEAH CHOOSE THE DONUTS THAT'S BASED
Did they model Rosa after Milly to atone for the fact she isn't here
Me seeing things that are identical to the 1998 one: excited pointing at tv while pogging
"Mm, Yeah no <3" I love him so much
"what's wrong with being a little timid" I want to hold you and never let go, you do not deserve what's coming
look at my boy dodging lets go
"I don't have any reason not to...eh, I don't really care...I told you I don't" Vash you deserve the world
hell yeah gunslinger moment
VASH HOW STRONG ARE YOU??
that smile AUEUEUEUEUUEUEUEUEU it really reminds me of 98
HUH?
Episode 3
uh oh
well how we getting outta this
OH THIS GUY I REMEMBER YOU
HE GOT CLOWNED ON BY SAMURAI GUY
ANGRY VASH HELLO HI KING MISSED YOU
love seeing Vash angry some of my favorite moments are when he's pissed
oh this is a smart plan actually
"who's side are you on anyway" is this going to be recurring
KNIVES
man Knives you really arent holding back
the creators of this show went "hey we saw your twin angst in DMC Capcom and how much yall emphasize the twins so we'd like to do the same since you probably were inspired by Knives and Vash for the Vergil and Dante situation"
YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THAT GORE IS SICK <- blood and gore enjoyer
is Johnny Young Bosch the only returning voice???
this is the third ask for who's side Vash's on this is definitely recurring
uhhhh whatcha doing there
◉_◉
"you would shoot me?" lowkey wish it was still as funny as it was in the 98 version
WOAH RELOAD ANIMATION
He's living up to the Million Knives name
that is certainly a Million knives
Metal Gear ass name
WOAH THAT'S SO COOL AND PRETTY
holy crap they quickly established the difference in serious tone oh my god, there is so much emotional weight here
also the music is gorgeous
yeah the stakes are much higher in this version, they are not afraid to kill characters
this is just heartbreaking
Vash 🥺
"because I dont deserve to cry" VAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASH AEUEUEUEUEUUEUEUUEUEUEUEUEUEUEUEUEUEU
so will we get to see what happens to July or will it just not happen
Episode 4
hi Wolfwood
not gonna lie I don't like this fit, the pants specifically
where's your nose king, they took it away
THEY HIT WOLFWOOD WITH THE CAR AHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH
oh well this aint good
Not a priest????
yep that's Wolfwood (lollipop scene)
he's much more emo here tho not as charming as 98
ASJDFJFSDL LMAOOO
loved that animation of Vash looking at the bill
well Roberto isn't wrong, you did work for Knives
hey isnt that Meryl's gun
"don't worry I can see through his emo persona ^-^" "HEY"
I KNEW IT WAS THIS KID
woah cool design
we are getting so much more of these guys than we did in 98
YUHHHHH THE DESIGN IS BASICALLY IDENTICAL
WOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
that actually looks good, id eat it
REVEALING THIS ALREADY?????
WHAT ARE YOU COOKING STUDIO ORANGE????
"i can see it in your eyes" dont think i didnt notice that little parallel
gate????
im snorting those end credit arts like crack cocaine
Episode 5
Todoroki that you?
WAIT I FORGOT WOLFWOOD IS VOICED BY TODOROKI'S ENGLISH VA AHAHAHAHHAHAHAH
the radio spouting religious stuff and doomsday talk is giving DMC5 intro
It's so interesting that at some angles the style is identical to the 1998 show
Vash in particular, they translated his facial expressions perfectly
OH THIS GUY
OH I LOVE THIS REDESIGN
I LOVE THIS REDESIGN A LOT
what's the deal with this kid
man they really are just tugging on my heartstrings in this show
"If God won't, I will!" STOP
Alice Angel that you?
OH NO
IS THIS WHERE I THINK IT'S GOING
OH NO
OH NO THIS MAKES THIS WHOLE SITUATION SO MUCH WORSE
HE KNEW HIM SINCE HE WAS A BABY???? SHOOT ME IT'D HURT LESS
HE WAS JUST SOME GOON GUY IN THE 98 VERSION I CANT AEUEUEUEUEUEUEUEU
same face as the 98 guy tho just with the scar
Oh Wolfwood doing that has so much more impact now
although in the 1998 version by having it not be someone Vash knew it added to how far Vash's ideals went and it caused Wolfwood to have introspection but this is a different arc
And in the 1998 version the situation is much more ambigous cause Vash is talking to the "kid" but he hasn't turned back at all yet and Wolfwood shoots
so it's more unclear who is right in that situation while in this you can see Rolo is sorta just frozen there and thinking so you're inclined to Vash's side more
what are they cooking, im so intrigued
Episode 6
WOAH WOAH WOAH WOLFWOOD WHAT IS YOUR DEAL
WOLFWOOD WAS A NORMAL GUY IN 1998
HE IS CLEARLY NOT HERE
"im like the cool big brother" tumblr does not agree
I have seen some art
THE SUITCASE THINGYS
CHARACTER THAT WASNT EVEN IN THE 1998 ONE???
MANGA CHARACTER AYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
this guy must be a bleach fan
OH THAT'S SO MUCH FUNNIER KNOWING JOHNNY YOUNG BOSCH VOICES ICHIGO AJAHHDAHHAHAHAHA
i love this 2D style can I get an entire anime in this style
Little Wolfwood and Little Megumi need to be in a idgaf competition
tiny menace to society
stfu this is so cute, how will this go horribly wrong
smoking at like 7 years old asjkdfalfd
Woah Trigun, your mom lets you have TWO tragic sibling plots???
wow they made Wolfwood trip balls
WOAH
THEY ARE NOT HOLDING BACK ON THE BODY HORROR <- thrilled about this
man they did screw you up
LEGATO
they took his emo swag
S+ what is this Devil May Cry
they flipped Legato's design and put the spikes on the right side and the part the other way
Livio has become Sans Undertale
Wolfwood better have a tiddies out fit next season
they were POPPING in 98
that jacket was STRUGGLING
"Ryan you're objectifying him" yes I am
I want to see his tiddies hand em over
Not gonna lie Wolfwood, you calling Vash "blondie" isnt helping the allegations
Episode 7
LMAOOOO THE BADLANDS GANG GETTING THEIR PHOTOS TAKEN AJSDFLJFSDK
i can't with this im AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUEUEUEUEUUE
if Buddy Daddies hadn't sucked me dry from crying so hard (i had just finished it the previous day) I would be weeping
WELP HE JUST DID THAT
he aint dead though i saw stuff about him
Legato not gonna lie I prefer your 98 version so far, like he made me shake in my boots a bit
Vash why is your arm made of the blown glass stuff they use to make little glass figures you see in the glass cabinets at the back of the PX or at a big gas station
that gun definitely hit something, just not the town bet
the title card of "Wolfwood" after he calls himself the punisher asjkdfjlaf
hello why am I crying at the scene of Vash with his hands against the glass in the plant
this just in, scene so pretty with pretty music that it made Ryan cry
not the first time
OH HE'S A PLANT
THAT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE
IM SO STUPID HOW DID I NOT REALIZE THAT DURING 98
ONCE AGAIN GOING FERAL FOR END CREDIT ART AALALALAAODFOAOAOAOAO
Episode 8
oh nooooooooooooooooooo
dont show me this
dont show me them being happy
my little baby boy auaueueueueueueueueueueueueueueu
"im mom to the sweetest boys in the universe" ONE sweet boy
The little blush on Nai dwaw
Plant lore????
Saverem? Really that's her last name??? Is this Metal Gear
BRAD???? THAT'S BRAD???
actually not surprised that's Brad
"there has to be something special that only you can do" be the most babygirl anyone could ever be, though you gotta grow up for that
I CANT LITTLE VASH AUEUEUEUEUEUEUUEEUUEUEUEEU
I NEED TO TAKE YOU FAR AWAY AND SPOIL YOU WITH ICE CREAM
when is this going to go horribly wrong
IM GONNA CRYYYYY HE'S SO ADORABLE AUEUEUEUEUEUUEUEEUUEUEUE
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
HE'S NOOOOT
HE ISNT WORKING WITH KNIVES HE DIDN'T LIE HE SAID HE'S PROBABLY DEAD WHICH UNDER MOST CIRCUMSTANCES WOULD BE TRUE
Man they made Knives look EXTRA Vergil
Episode 9
epic piano, also how are you playing both parts by yourself
WOAH 1998 TYPE SHOT
i fully believe they're emulating the 1998 style just in 3D now, the side profiles give it away
well that's messed up, i can see why Knives hates humans
that doesnt explain why he crashed the ships though
"Millions Knives" i really do think you played Metal Gear
Knives I do wonder what your plan was cause how do you expect the plants to survive here
oh so the gun isn't custom made
98 THING HE SAID THAT KINDA IN 98 TOO ("all this time and you're still just as useless without me)
i appreciate them trying to keep the deranged faces Knives makes in 98
WOAH WOAH WAOH WOAH WAOHWOAH
IS THAT THE BLACK HOLE THING, I SAW SOMETHING ABOUT IT FROM THE MANGA
Now Vash is even MORE like Nero
WAIT HAS IT NOT BEEN 100 YEARS???
oh nevermind, its been 150 years
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
a whole ship of passengers...I'm sure this won't be relevant later they're going to die arent they
oh my gosh that's right she's never seen flowers and such like this
more of this side picking stuff
I'm not ready for when he does kill again, that will actually break my heart
oh they are just bugs
OUR PRONOUNS ARE THEY/THEM, BECAUSE WE'RE NON-BINARY AND A BUNCH OF MFS
Episode 10
I'M ON EPISODE 10 ALREADY???
I literally became a Trigun fan in less than 24 hours
Hundred Spoons lmaooooo
so weird to hear them talk about Earth, but it's not as much of a HUH like 98's
than you remember??? when did you come here last
I need him to say Love and Peace
please please say it
"I DID NOT GIVE THAT ORDER" "OH SHUT IT" "OKAY" asjlkdfjlskfd
okay is Conrad aware Knives probably aint gonna let him make a new race of humans, like have fun with your experiment he does not want human to live at all
"they're disgusted by you" that is the most babygirl man ive ever seen
i have the exact opposite reaction
also his scars aren't as gnarly as 98...will he get more later
ULTIMATE LIFE FORM MENTION 🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️ WTF IS A POWER INHIBITOR 🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️ 🗣️
well that's what you get for mixing Knives genetics in that
El-what's her face got homophobia in her eyes
I KNEW IT
I KNEW HE WASNT MAKING IT
HE'S GOT MERYL'S GUNS FROM THE 1998 ONE SO IF SHE'S GONNA HAVE THE GUNS THEN SOMETHING HAD TO HAPPEN
God Knives you drama queen with this piano
oh NOW he's a pastor
BRUH i cant
HE DIDNT CAUSE IT THAT WAS YOU
wtf did you do to him Conrad
also Knives's VA sounds so much like Vergil at times
it's not Dan Southworth but this guy can sound close
Episode 11
oh intro immediately you know it's gonna be intense
okay Wolfwood Im begging you next season at the very least change pants the skinny jean look isnt good
ALSO KNIVES HELLO
PUT ON SOME CLOTHES
jesus kids these days
always wearing revealing outfits
DOUBLE CHEEKED UP
man they aren't letting up the bible allegories
"dawn your crown of thorns"
1998 had more subtle ones and then the super obvious one with the garden of eden stuff
"we're going to reverse humanity's suicide by killing them all" do yall...do yall not see the problem with that logic
god this makes me want to read the manga now just to see how much this version pulls from it and how much the 98 version pulls from it
Knives what is your workout routine do you workout with Toji or something
HE LITERALLY DIDN'T THOUGH KNIVES, STOP BLAMING HIM FOR A CHOICE YOU MADE
"comparison is the thief of joy" SO REAL AND BASED
Knives yknow I have this gut feeling that Rem did mean something to you and you are just in SUPER denial
OH OKAY
ALRIGHT I GET WHY YOU'RE THE WAY YOU ARE ABOUT THIS KNIVES
OH HE LITERALLY READ THE BIBLE
STFU NO IT WASNT KNIVES STOP TRYING TO MAKE HIM THINK IT'S HIS FAULT
was it Knives was it? Cause you seem willing to sacrifice your brother for all this
Knives this is gonna backfire on you
Knives read the bible and took all the wrong lessons
dont think i didnt notice that the giant plant resembles Rem
Episode 12
"like a western, life on the frontier" STFUUUUUUUUUUU
YOU DO NOT WANT KNIVES IN THOSE GENETICS THEY'LL JUST START KILLING EACH OTHER
ONCE AGAIN THE MERYL REM CONNECTION (referring to 98 when Vash sees Rem in Meryl)
YUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUH
STUFUFUSDFLKJSFDF
Sjaesjk
fpaesjf
THE HAIR THAE THE HAIR
SHUT THE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
YES
EYSYEYSYEYSEYSEYEAYEYSYEYSYE
THE ANGEL GUN
SHUT UP
SHUT UP
#0
THEY PLACED US KINDA AT THE INTRO OF THE ORIGINAL
ALSO HE'S DOING LOVE AND PEACE IN THE PHOTO
INSURANCE SOCIETY
AJKLSDFLJKSDFJKLFDSLJKDFSLJKFDSJLAKFDJLFKDSFDLK
JDFASLJKDSFAJLKFSDJKL;SDZFLJK
MILLIE MILLIE MIILEYLAWER
FHJAERSKJDFLK' SDAJKLFAHKLASFDJLKDFHL;AJSFHJASDFLJDFSALKSDALKJDSFHJLDSFAHDSHJLSDAFHKLFSLAJ
THE EARRINGS SHE HAS HER EARRINGS
JKLDSJLKSADJLKDSZJLKSDFJLKSDFJLKZSLDFJ;ZKSFJLKSDFZJLKASDFJLKSFASDF;LJZVDXLNKXZVLS
VASH
ERIKS ASLDKJJLKSDAJLKSDFALJKSDFAJLKSDFAJLKSDFAJLKSFALJKASFDLJKSDAFLJKDSFJLKSDFAJLKSDFLJKSDAFLJSADFJLSDFJLDSFJLKSDFJLKLSDFJKA
OH MY GOD
OH NY GOD
OG TY G SD H ASDFLJ
OH MY GOD
SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
YEAH
YEAH I WAS RIGHT TO WATCH 1998 FIRSR
I WAS SO RIGHT FOR THAT
OH THAT MAKES THIS SO MUCH BETTER I
M LSOING MYS ASDFJMIND
WHEN
WHEN NEXT SEASON
WEHN WHEN IN ENED
IN ENEE NEED
IN EEE
IC NAT
#discord peeps saw some of these already cause i was spamming a chat#yes i watched both in dub just because of Johnny Young Bosch#both dubs are really well done though#trigun#trigun stampede#tristamp#yes the Devil May Cry superfan ADORES Trigun how surprising /s#shoutout the discord server im in that's been getting me chewing on Trigun and Trigun Stampede#and crying over Vash#he's already covering all my notes and sketchbook#hasn't even been a full week since I started 98 as I'm writing this
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rating pjsk characters based on how likely i am to beat them in a physical fight
Ichika: 6/10 im not sure how strong she is but she has this aura about her. i would fight her but i would be so scared
saki: 1/10 i could easily beat her but i would cry. i would let her win just cause i love her too much to even try to hit her
honami: 3/10 shes a drummer. she would beat my ass and she would do it with a funky rythm.
shiho: 5/10 i would put up a good fight but im not winning it. i love her a lot too but i wouldnt feel as bad about fighting her
minori: 7/10 im winning but shes not giving up easy
haruka: 2/10 i just dont think i could do it both physically and mentally, idc how strong or weak she is im losing this one
airi: 0/10 i dont even have a chance. im gone before the fight even starts are you kidding me
shizuku: 2/10 shes an archer are u kidding me. shes definetly stronger than me but she wouldnt want to fight me so i have a bit of a chance. im not taking that chance tho im scared.
kohane: 9/10 i would feel bad and she would definitely put up a good fight but i could win
an: 3/10 i would cry, not because shes stronger than me but because i love her way too much and just seeing her would make me sob
akito: 1/10 i have no chance in winning but im trying my best to beat that gingers ass anyway. he canonically works out and has the determination levels of frisk undertale while the only thing on my side is pure hatred for gingers [i love him but if i could fight him i would]
toya: 4/10 i win easily but i dont feel good about it..
tsukasa: 0/10 i cant. i dont think hes stronger than me but if i saw him i would just hug him and sob. there is no fight. he just ends up comforting me for an hour.
emu: 0/10 she folds me in half immediately. i die on the scene. she wasnt even trying to fight me she just hugged me. broke all of my bones.
nene: 5/10 shes not strong so i win easy but once again i dont feel good about it
rui: 9/10 easiest fight of my life. i go for the ankles and without his robots to use he is hopeless. if there are robots involved i eat all of their parts so i win anyway
kanade: 10/10 i tell her to take the fight outside and she immediately collapses
mafuyu: 0/10 fuck no.
ena: 1/10 i have experience in fighting older sisters so i would put up a good fight but she gets my ass anyway. no chance but i try anyway
mizuki: 1/10 theyre not much stronger than me but they wouldnt be afraid to beat my ass if they wanted to and i love them too much to fight back
that is all thanks for reading
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TF2 OC Infodump... About this silly guy
Minion's relationships with the mercs
Engineer - Engie is like one of the only people that can understand him (literally not emotionally) because of his thick ass accent. Minion likes to talk to him. Minion yaps to him a LOT, about almost everything.
Medic - Minion WILL find any way possible to be the one to deliver Medics orders personally. He also likes to include extra organs in almost every shipment. Minion makes his feelings towards Medic very obvious, but Medic continues to play dumb to keep getting those extra organs. Minions bird is the cause of at least 3 archimedes going missing.
Spy - Spy has photo evidence of Minion doing weird shit (staring at medics ass or smth idk). Minion is VERY aware of this and gets very nervous when hes doing anything at all because hes afraid that Spy is taking a picture of him.
Soldier - Soldier is one of Minion's best friends, but Minion is scared that Soldier will grab him. Because he did, once. Minion got accused of not being faithful to America.
Sniper - Minion thinks he's weird because of the jarate thing. Hes scared that Sniper will throw jarate at him. Theyre probably buddies though, because they are both from places that have like weird animals, and they'd probably talk about that.
Scout - Theyre probably buddies because they both are falling for someone who barely likes them back. They encourage eachother. They're also relatively around the same age.
Demoman - Demoman is one of Minion's best friends along with Soldier. They'd also be drinking buddies, maybe not too often but they would. Minion gets really emotional when hes drunk, so he'd probably overshare to Demoman.
Heavy- I think theyre only acquaintances because they both cant quite understand each other (considering they both dont speak fluent english, and their native languages are different) BUT i think if they ever hung out they would cook for each other / bond over food.
Pyro - He probably hangs out a lot with Pyro because of Louise, he draws with Pyro when hanging out with them and Louise.
Bonus: Miss Pauling - I think he respects her a lot as a person and thinks she's cool. He probably tries to convince her just a little bit that scout is cool.
Louise - They are literally the father daughter duo EVER!! minion loves louise as a daughter so much and he cares so much he would take a bullet for her.
Eddy - Even though they might argue or have their differences sometimes, Eddy is always Minion's best friend. Minion truly appreciates Eddy and is grateful that Eddy is in his life.
Smissmass Presents
Spy - Lint, like he WRAPS IT to make it look like an extravagant cool gift but he actualy needle felted to lint to make it into a middle finger
Soldier - a tabo becuz he heard that soldier like bucket
Medic - he would buy him like 8 presents and make him custom advent calendar but its just pics of him and its the same picture each time for 12 days
Demoman - probably a nice bottle of wine or a case of his favorite alcohol
Scout - shitty art supplies because Scouf draws a lot, minion thinks those are the best art supplies in the world
Heavy - He would try to make a sandwich but with hawaiian rolls
Engineer - a book on how to learn tagalog
Pyro - 200 pack of jumbo crayons
Sniper - something very australian related
Bonus: Miss Pauling - A world globe you color in places for everywhere you've been.
Louise - Literally ANY toy besides a puzzle because he knows shes sick of if
Eddy - joke gifts like a mug or t-shirt that says something retarded, but if a real gift he'd buy something that was on eddys wishlist or something
on the bonus ones.. Louise and Eddy are my friend's OCs
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Jamari Blackwood (Ya’s Oc) Masterlist
The human embodiment of hard on the outside chewy on the inside Jamari-
Character description
Werewolf
Halloween celebration
Hunted Down
Coming back from the dead
Scary movies
Haunted House
S/o trying to escape their werewolf mate
Werewolf jamari with a s/o who always gets lost
Succubus S/o
Random HC
Werewolf HC
S/o whose hesitant to live with him due to taking care of their sibling
S/o whose flustered by his voice
Gentle affectionate S/o
S/o collapsing due to the pressure put on them from their parents
Scared S/o whose constantly trying to escape
Friendly S/o who cant bring themselves to completely abandon their ex
Happy energetic S/os fun behavior suddenly stopping
Pastry Baker S/o
Trans FTM S/o
Taking care of Sick Male s/o
Pregnant S/o
Abused S/o whos afraid to get into another relationship
Darlings clingy and dependent
S/o has a thing for his piercings
Darling who bites as a love language
S/o who feels safe in his arms
Darling who likes to knit
Waking up to find S/o missing from bed
Waking up to find S/o having a break down on the floor
Goth darling
Distant S/o cuddles up to him in the middle of the night
Wearing his clothes
Playing with his hair
S/o feels second place to his ex
Cubby and innocent S/o
S/o who has never been in a relationship yet and is nervous
Cubby S/o
Yandere Alphabet: D,E,F
Arriving unbelievably late for Valentines date
Soft Spoken and shy S/o
Yandere Alphabet: H,I,U,W,Y
Deaf Darling
Waking up to find his S/o making a surprise breakfast
S/o who constantly goes to the hospital cause of a chronic illness
Darling with a Eating Disorder TW
Chubby S/o getting bullied but hesitant to tell
Darling who has a hard time expressing feelings
Finding a girl with amnesia in a alleyway
Celebrating your birthday
S/o coming home drunk not recognizing who he is
How Jamaris low empathy manifests
Falling asleep on his lap during a movie
S/os his yandere admirer
Baby whose clingy
Narcoleptic S/o
Putting up a fight even after being kidnapped
S/o who talks, moves and walks in their sleep
S/o w/ a little sister trying to break up with him
Baby who reacts physically to intense emotions
Psychoanalyzing him
Yandere S/o not wanting a actual relationship, just wanting to admire from a distance
Childhood Headcannons
Finding Yandere S/os secret room full of photos of him
Breaking up due to figuring out theyre Aro/Ace
S/os the child of a mafia family
Kidnapped S/o breaking down, thankful that they dont have to stress anymore
Pressured into breaking up w/ Jamari
S/o w/ Temporary leg paralysis
Baby who becomes mute when stressed/scared
Yandere S/o kidnapping Jamari
Big male influencer S/o
Amputee S/o who hates their prosthetic arm
Find out Crush is being domestically abused
Baby loving how their attacker said “Knife, to meet you” before stabbing them
Blind S/o who doesnt want to be in a relationship and stay independent
S/o who died has a twin that looks just like them
S/o w/ PTSD
S/o w/ OCD
Walking in on S/o torturing someone TW
S/o who cant feel pain
Calling him “cuddle monster”
Possessive Headcannons
S/o w/ restless leg syndrome
Helping darling sell their BL manga
Possessive S/o whos also been cheated on before
Being introduced to his family
Kidnapped S/o crying themselves to sleep every night
S/o sleeps on a giant teddy bear instead of a mattress
Darling liking to feel up his chest
S/o whose great at escape rooms
Darling whos not used to affection
How Jamari got his Scar TW
S/o whos allergic to the cold
Kidnapped S/o thinking hes going to kill them
Dead S/o coming back as a ghost
S/o flinches due to their childhood
Finding Yandere Male S/o covered in blood
S/o w/ Rejection sensitive dysphoria
Traits Jamaris ex had that would set off his paranoia
S/o whos constantly stressed and control freak
Breaking his jaw in a escape attempt
Queer Platonic relationship with aromantic S/o
Autistic S/o worried to talk about their special interest
S/o that squeezes his chest anytime they can
Begging for him to let you go
S/o got the flu
Fluff HC
S/o Calling jamari to save them from a horrible road trip w/ their mom
Kidnapped S/o attacking him whenever he gets close
What would make Jamaris mom disapprove of you
Clinging to Jamari, refusing to let go after hes been out on a job for awhile
Gamer S/o
Caregiver S/o
Comforting Baby whos having night terrors
Insomniac s/o
His family finding out about his captive s/o
Rejecting him out of fear of being apart of a pattern or being left for someone else
S/o has a coughing tic
Dealing with another flirting with him
Walking in to see s/o holding a knife to their throat TW
Kidnapping S/o whos on their period
Kidnapped s/o starts to dissociate a lot
Kidnapped S/o injuring him everytime he gets close
Jealousy HC
Daughter loves being w/ him
S/o whose a major sweet tooth with a bunch of filled cavities
Kidnapped S/o passing out due to fear the moment they woke up
Getting Jamaris mother to like you
Platonic HC
S/o saying “lol if you ever ask me again i’ll make sure you won’t be able to, tree trunk” when he asks them why their being so cuddly
Decora Kei/Kidcore S/O
Kidnapped S/o almost stabbing him in the chest
Jamari gets kissed by some random person and the S/O sees
S/o needs a video playing in the background to sleep
“I’m sorry, I know it hurts.”
“Sweetheart…what are you doing?”
“Shh, don’t cry. You’re safe with me.”
Touch starved S/o who constantly needs cuddles
How Jamari would pace your relationship together
S/o who has a ton of stuffed animals covering their bed
S/o whos basically the "what's this?" "affection" "disgusting- do it again" meme
Masochistic S/o
QPR with a aromantic S/o who wants to be roommates
Random HC about sweet boi jamari
How he would woo a closed off S/o whos like him
How jamari would react to the silent treatment
Baby whos terrified of storms
Talking his baby to sleep
Taking advantage of The Purge to get his baby
Haunted house
Weredog S/o
S/o got bit by a zombie
Zombie Jamari
Vampire Jamari
Dressing up in couples costumes
Werewolf Jamari during The Purge
S/o thinking he loves them too much due to past trauma
Bumping into his childhood bestfriend darling
Baby w/ Glasses
Germaphobe S/o
Aro S/o being self conscious of their ‘non typical’ relationship
College student s/o
S/os friend acting as his wingman
Fast food worker S/o
Kidnapped Aro S/o
Artist S/o who constantly doodles him
Kidnapped S/o managing to constantly slip out the apartment
Kidnapped S/o doing what he says out of fear
Hero Prompt
Platonic Shape Shifter prompt
Platonic Hunted down
Kidnapped S/o wants to dress up in matching costumes
Werewolf Heat
NS FW bits of HC
Jerking it to a picture of you
Finding Darling dry humping his pillow
Getting hard while cuddling
S/o who has only fans/sells panties
Male S/o teasing him
NS FW hc
Car Sex
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